Protected breast, but lost love
This front I how can anyone know, life is would at a certain stage suddenly the trap spread densely.Have a little bit to neglect and then lead to whole body scar, trust and doubt, love and trap, live to take off one proptosis fantastic play.
I oddly start to remember to know that evening that oneself “fall ill” for the first time, is also so cold night, is also sit stunned here, but feel ratio I am harder to bear with at that time of woe.
Up to now remembering that date is up to nowNovember 1, 2006, however short and a few hours, I keep fall to to the 18 F from the human life hell, carried on the back to ascend a heavy identity:The sufferer of breast cancer.
Discover there is a sterigma sterigma in the breast of the lump be a few before the months of matter.Beginning I cared, because hear that a lot of females all have thus of problem, afterwards sought a doctor to see once.The doctor inattentively says that is a fibroma, should be positive, the insurance vesication see, or makes a section check.
But the doctor’s complexion become dignified after get hold of report effect:”Have no family’s friend to accompany you?”I shake, how?In the meantime I already the Pie arrived to analyze the word of effect:Malignant XXX.
My hand starts shiver, the day Xuan ground turn and depend on sparse hear doctor say, make to cut off surgical operation, this is to most actively treat.Cut off?Will I lose a breast?Won’t is a woman of integrity again?I the tight hug wear own shoulders and loudly shout:Not!
The doctor of good heart comforts me:Don’t worry, get the person of this disease a lot of, you see a somebody else Hong Kong star is Wang Ming2 Quan2 to also live thoroughly?
I what also listen to not to go in, milli- immoderation ground weep aloud, “how can get this disease!I don’t want to cut off!I not good disease!”The hallway rings Che my to cry a voice, connect flank a few probationers of the orbits be all wet.My side cries a side to shout:”Aught, I in no case will make to cut off surgical operation!”
The doctor shake and the Shua Shua Shua wrote to get up on the receipt, then handed over to me to say:That sign, confirm you not to do to cut off surgical operation, you go home first to calm down once and regardless how, want to do a chemotherapy next move.
When the doorway wait rent, the bise nowise takes pain ground through my weak clothes, haven’t pass by in autumn, but I am cold the tight hug live a pair of arms.Scan widely to hope to go to, the all of the street come and go of woman, each make me envy.
Night, I top tired of earthly lifely my net store.This be my work-openned a net store at domestic a large shopping website.Previous I am a communis sterigma the white get, did in the different company for several years, administration, two year ago Cis job, originally think a transition work, but because the friend has into the goods outlet, I tried to open this store.
A matter of romance originally and very, now say come but very funny, my net store conducts a female type chest, thorax dress.
That beautiful chest, thorax dress, cotton quality, sliver quality, lace, complete with everything.Two in the last yearses, this wife and children store earned living expenses for me and more become friends with to a batch, lot share common ambition and goal of friend.I continue to long for it.
I sat to open a computer in the blackness.There are a few orders, there are also two messages of old customers, see me getting to the Internet for two days, ask what’s the matter with me.I urgently need someone to share for me, hence wrote down to take place today in the community of matter.The coda of invitation card is so one section words:”I absolutely not want to exist next go to, also doing not hope a chemotherapy can also see a beautiful oneself hereafter, I already not intentional conduct this wife and children store.Is unwilling you, appreciate your two in the last yearseses to my support.”
I am write and flowing tears, whole body inertia.
Invitation card just delivered come up, return card the first floor first floor ground operculum get up, the owners all were encourage me, someone made me strong invigorate;Return someone tells me the special prescription, -cold night here, the heart becomes ice-cold because of disease, but at this time these return card let me feel repeatedly warm.
I was exactly stuffy in the home one turnover, slept to cry, cried to sleep, be this kind of shocked with painfully sad slowly in the past, I decided first not to tell far at Chen2 Yang2’s parents, oneself a person to face.
Process after the event of finish the small store this evening, I according to practice browse that invitation card that I deliver-it has been already cover a high building which has ten several page return cards.Recent of a return card, the return card person call”do not eat ground mustard”, he says from the report family 27 years old, once in my store give his ex- the girl friend once bought a few underwears.He admires my strong demulcent therapy, reconciliation dispassion, say would like to conduct this wife and children store for me, let me be easy to convalesce.
The contact method that I immediately leave according to him found out him.The inside of the video frequency of he has a face of Jun Lang, I just a little bit hesitate, he say, “I don’t have larger strength and can help you, cans make this one step.”
Tears such as rain bottom, once fell to the heart of freezing point to start recover.
Ground mustard also in Shenzhen, true named Liu2 Duo2, is the market of a stationery company investigation member, he openly says, “my rental agreement expired this several days, is just intend to move house, move you neighborhood.”
Liu2 Duo2 is a very able person, very quick operate net store with proficiency, message or problem which process customer also very in proper form.Two divas, I thoroughly let go of a heart.
Work well rice everyday while start, I am Liu2 Duo2 to come over to eat and he peeps out difficult facial expression:”Do you return to cook a meal for me?Carefully tired.”I insist on be not willing to:”I have never arrive to move can not of situation, and cook a meal can make me little to think those despairing matters.”
He say cant not bear to heart, come to help me, two people are crowded together busy in the kitchen of narrowness.Had a meal each time he lets me sit down to take a rest and oneself robs to tidy up a chopsticks and deal with small store business.We get very near, his body has the thigh the warm breathing and make the person is dependable.
Next one turnover, the small store had another a lot of new customers, everyone not only left a message to encourage me to want strong, also bought not a few underwears, the sale was frontal to equal for a month at ordinary times.
A day evening, Liu2 Duo2 openned a few web pages to show me.BE all invitation card of his hair, in felt attracted ground to write my condition and my small store.Although deliver in the different community, the net friends return cards be all similar, the most people declares to say that patronizes my small store and also launch friends to all buy ……repeatedly affect later on, I raise head to took a look him and he at the right moment also gentle and softly lookings at me and have the black and white the clear Cheng Che in eye.We face to face stand, near get the respiratory trees and heart beat that I can clearly hear him.A short moment, he stretches out to chase my Lan to enter a bosom and embrace so and tightly.I flurriedly push away him, his performance have an accident of facial expression, in a soft voice ask:”How, don’t you like me?”
My tears beats to turn in the orbit:”I get this got sick and also entitle to trunks what?”
He feels pity on my hairs of head of a ground of petting:”Simpleton, who all have right to enjoy love.”
We have never continued again this topic, I but mind not and rather, for Liu2 Duo2, really have complicated feeling to be sprout, but I ask myself where go together with at 1:00 ascend him?I almost will become a not complete woman and why the need for bring trouble him?
Two divas, Liu2 Duo2 Ji2 in a hurry comes to my house, walk and I take you to see personal!He is a soil to cure, however very famous, the big hospital can’t cure of problem, does he have a way!
On the car, Liu2 Duo2 points an own shoulder:Lend to depend for you, time has a little son longus and fear that you can not stand.Depend on his shoulder, I feel oneself never such of dependable, trust.
The soil cured to see a doctor for me, Liu2 Duo2 of elaboration still took out a red envelope for ready to give the other party, then lift a medicinal herb to take me home.
Return to a house, Liu2 Duo2 Mang2 give me the cook medicine.I get to the Internet to open once the mailbox see and unexpectedly have a mail that Liu2 Duo2 deliver and the topic is “disturbances, let me accompany you to walk through together” and the inside of the enclosure is the food that he find out to treat a method.
The in the mind has warm current to flow out to move, I walk to a kitchen to shout him, “Liu2 Duo2!”He hasn’t turned round, I already the tight hug live him.
The living condition which describes now with the phrase ” happiness” is a little bit a son exaggeration and particularly say for a cancer patient.But the life be a Feng back track to so turn.I got Liu2 Duo2’s love, the net friends concern also constantly and continuously.Have 1 two in the last yearses have been look after my business of girl, have already bought the underwear of over 1,000 dollars.She say that have our support and love, believe that you will must like.So of the message got me more to can not reckon how many quickly and they make me tearful once and with a run.
Sometimes my forgetting oneself be a patient.
Liu2 Duo2 moves to live together with me, he really to I good, afraid that I am tired is afraid that I am cold and I inwardly think and person, who can find out to love each other,’s keeping warm mutually is how rare.
Suddenly I want to understand, for the sake of him, I must bravely live next go to.Life and beautiful, I choose life.
I have to do excision surgical operation.
Accepted the net friend’s suggestion, I decided that the hospital which goes to Guangzhou does surgical operation, go to a telephone for Guangzhou and there the director doctor let me do to analyze as soon as possible and reexamine 1 time again.
Let go of a telephone, the inside of the television just in the live Asian Games, Liu2 Xiang2 is starting to prepare to run.Liu2 Duo2 say:”You see, if he can take gold medal and you be able to must also win this disease.”Soar to say to Liu, the Duo corona is how easy and he still broke Asia a record!In the one happy Teng voice, Liu2 Duo2 embrace me in the bosom, say:”Dear of, this is really a good sign and our loves can be also record-breaking.”
Liu2 Duo2 sent me to ascend a train and say:”There are a lot of orders wanting a processing, can’t accompany you to go to, remember to finish do to analyze to hurriedly come back.”Looking at the concern of his eyeful, I put out strength to nod.
However the examination come out of make me shocked as a result!
The details in the novel unexpectedly takes place on my body, this disease, is out and out of erroneous diagnosis!My fibroma root is positive.I don’t believe that fear that this is immediately also an erroneous diagnosis, went another hospital, the effect is similar!
Hold to analyze a list foolish sign in the hospital doorway, I don’t know that oneself’s should cry still should smile.An erroneous diagnosis of incompetent physician, let me experience from cradle to grave, from heaven go to the molestation of hell, also let me do two chemotherapy, ate so many suffering ……
I immediately go to a telephone for Liu2 Duo2 and urgently want at and at that time shares with him-with gratitude God, this”disease” lets me know him, this a moment suddenly had new comprehension to the life, in fact everythings be all of no account, cherishing life is the most important, and the lover spend every day ……
However the telephone shut down.
I feel suspicious very much and take on a train a time of all over the place heavy stir, but that icy cold female voice a time of time duplication:Execuse me, your stiring the telephone of dozen has already shut down.
My in the mind surged forward prepare of a burst of bad omen feeling.
Anxiously return to a house, the room leaves with me nothing important differentiation, but I still kept smelling some different breathing from it.Open once the cabinet division, phylum see and all of Liu2 Duo2’s clotheses disappeared and that small store exclusively used to bank card of accept the payment and also disappeared to have no Zong.
I can’t from already violent shiver.”Abscond” four words is like heavy hammer similar shot in my mind, but my in the mind return survive a sliver hope, don’t wish to believe this to be true.Register on-line bank, in the card remains 200 diverse moneys, over 20,000 dollars payment of rest has already been withdraw in that morning a get empty.
The cold idea flowed out to come up, originally this so-called good heart help each other, terminal disease romance, only is field out and out of bunco!My Zheng at at first, the in the mind is empty, body in of a certain is living to dig.
At 2:00 A.M., weariness of I open a computer to arrive at a net store, delivered an invitation card and wrote a pass by of affair.-Regardless Liu2 Duo2 how, the so much warmhearted net friend has been concern me, encourage me, I should and at that time tell them that this is an erroneous diagnosis.
In a daze slept for a few hours, waked up to discover while get to the Internet much many messages.Just start still passionate customer the net friends are happy for me acclaim, but downwards saw again wrong, thered is a message to say so:”You exactly really get sick still false get sick?Hope you to isn’t a stir-frying to make, is not for letting everyone sympathize with you, the underwear bought you.”
I got a fright, downwards see again, acted in cooperation her for someone:”Can’t, for money use thus of confidence game, tell us quickly that this isn’t true!”A sees down and the posterior surface greatly part of messages are unexpectedly and all this meaning.
Cold sweating Cen Cen but descend, my Quan is on the chair:You don’t want to misunderstand me!However no one hear the voice of my heart, only have an icy cold screen, full doubt for hold.
A message jumped into the inside of my eyes:Now that you haven’t got sick now, I didn’t also necessary buy you of underwear, know you of underwear ratio don’t house of all expensive.I want return of goods, please return money to me.
The color of the sky outside the window turns into dark from clear, turn into black from dark, indoor the whole is gobble up by this endless blackness.
At this time, I oddly start to remember to know that evening that oneself “fall ill” for the first time, is also so cold night, is also sit stunned here, but feel ratio I am harder to bear with at that time of woe.
The sever winter of body passed by, the cold winter of heart imitate the Fo just just started.Liu2 Duo2’s bosom embraces to seem a dream, but have I ever really once existed in that dream?
