Virgin did not want to do, but had to do
Sometimes I think unfair, why no men were not ads, but it will not do a woman. Even if others are not, themselves unable to pass this hurdle.
In my life there are three men. Section J of a boyfriend than I was seven, when he recognized my 19-year-old, it is because of this, he has been to me as to the same child. And he fell in love three years, the most unusual move, he was playing out of the kiss. I do not know if he is going to do for me or it does not want to hurt me, or he simply does not want to and I have a result. This summer he finally went to his dream of the USA, he blinked away when I left, even though I do not know whether he will still come back. But I think this is not important, next summer I graduated, since he went to the USA, I started to do a visa for Canada, I would like to wait for me to Canada to give him a surprise, I finished a master’s degree in Canada to the United States on easily.
In my sweetest for the future, I intend to do when I inadvertently J to know the true purpose of his former girlfriend, and the original in my three years that he never forgot his girlfriend. Tears in his eyes, I wrote a mail to him and tell him I know all, he did not deny. Over the phone, I kept asking him why Geological do so, I would not like to tell me, why should I hide three years? He was probably tired of me asking, I had a back : “This is your land? I am sorry I do not have to do your thing. “After hearing this, my heart suddenly cool. This year he did not come across my reason is to find a higher level now, I would have become final a vexatious.
No J, my life lost its momentum, not the target. Senior, others were busy test pin, taking tests, finding a job, I was are urging shopping, Wandanqi to Canada for me has no meaning.
At this moment, an A netizen to travel to Shanghai. He, I want 10-year-old, I have always regarded him as Big Brother, what a happy, unhappy incident would tell him. As he left Shanghai on the last day of the evening, and he finished dinner, my phone was found on his room, and on him from returning to the room. As I prepared to leave the room the moment he clings to the back of me, and began to kiss me. A small beginning I was a little resistance, but then I take the plunge.
The first time I felt the man’s life, man’s savagery, men’s efforts, I would not tolerate resistance, the spiritual emptiness I really need to moisten, I started with him. Although some clumsy moves, but enough to cause his desires. He kept lights, I take to the bed and kept Wenzhao, touching me all over my body. I watched through the glass walls of the endless Sky, and see this while lying in my body, naked bodies of men, the joy of a nameless sense clog the heart. When he extended the hand of the depths of my thigh, he suddenly asked me : “Do you come across your boyfriend?” I shook his head, but he only Ge. Quick : “I am sorry, I really do not know if you are not touching. I see you a bit of hysteria, you than I imagined pretty much. “I put on the clothes and what not talking away. I suddenly realized that this world will only care about your husband is not a virgin, the other person is not a virgin only better. They fear for fear of guilt.
A Although it is only fleeting, but deep in my soul is out of the souls. From that point I started to think of men, began to masturbate. The days I know J in the United States and failing to restore his former girlfriend’s affair. I icy heart begins to melt, I even decided to return to his summer I gave him everything, whether or not I him, I love him as long as he can.
In September I attended a birthday party, the Y encounter. He and I have a high school, than I am, two, our school is the handsome guy. Then he and his brother bet him to 13 days in the 13th chased from their classrooms through the girls, otherwise he will have to eat 13 tofu (he hates the most stinky tofu). The result was that I let him eat 13 tofu. She was 73 years his school after graduation has been in the entertainment circle mixed, and he also mixed up something, but still handsome. Party after he sent me home and said without reservation to recover me, and give him a chance, this is serious. Only when I laugh, even if heard, he really did not expect to be true. But I did not accept him, his men can not give me a sense of security, I can not find the feeling of belonging.
Some day, I went to his home at the play, so I have to go back when it began to rain. Two people in the room to see disc, somewhat pornographic discs, his hands started restless up. Compared with A, Y skills to the many clever, and really caressing a woman, one will let me get excited. General-my clothes, that he fondled my breasts, apical playing with nipple, and then nibble yes, the other hand below the I kept swimming, I know I will immediately die, he is also prepared to take his baby could put Cypriots. Suddenly I am reminded of J, I love this man. I spread He said : “I am sorry, this is not, I never did.” First, he was a little surprised, and then kissed me and said : “Never, I will be careful not Longteng you.” Then he was sent to prepare for another 50 hurt, I whispered to him away, he thought I was shy or fear, do not forget, still insists. I suddenly exclaimed : “You will dare to use the following things you touch me, I will sue you rape.” He faces amazing watching me, I took refuge in his arms wept.
Who would not understand at this time I really think about is what, even myself, do not quite understand. I only know that if I can and J together, and if I know J is not a virgin, he is not to me. If not, and J together, and if my future husband know, I explain how? I gradually subsided, the Y said, “You can touch me, but it is not breaking the membrane layer which, I promise, okay?” The day after, Y is indeed very obedient without using his precious. He changed to be able to meet me, sometimes I think he buried in my head below, using the tongue to let me reach orgasm, I was indeed full of regrets. He looked at me and jokingly said : “Tomorrow you marry me, or to find the man I married it.”
Sometimes I feel so embarrassed themselves on the difficult people in order to protect this layer membrane, and feels like. But I had to do so, after all, after her husband history judge you on whether it is innocent layer membrane. I clearly know that I am today less than a coating of innocent women is not much, perhaps even more promiscuous.
I really do not want to be a virgin.
But I had to do.
